the life of man is like a shadow - play

2009-02-06T21:23:00.002+08:00

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rowlikehell @lj. for everyone.

Aussie open 2009!

2009-01-28T18:15:00.004+08:00

it's the Aussie open once again! (im rather late for this, but heck)

anyway, this year is a special year for the aussie open. many interesting matches and massive disappointment for some players.

Murray and Djokovic are out of the race ): my super massive heartbreaker. Nevermind about that, but the underdogs are really awesome.

Simon is really good ya know. His big serve is awesome. and and, he is currently playing against Nadal in the last quaterfinal. Nadal took the 1st set and the 2nd set is exciting! (im VERY excited over this match! go watch!)

On the female side, it was just as exciting! :D

The Aussie favourite, Dokic, is out of the race. She fought a good match against Safina.

And and, my favs, Ana Ivanovic and Jelena Jonkovic are out ): damn, it's really bad ya know. HEARTBROKEN ):

Look at her freaking muscles, HUGE!

this is all the time i have for now.tata.
more update soon?

2009-01-19T22:30:00.002+08:00

life is so mundane nowadays.
nothing seems to be going to the right direction.
everything seems so wrong, just so wrong.

what's life for me ahead? i never know.
but i do hope that there is some excitement for now.

i dont wish to be emo or unhappy about life, but i seriously think that there is little meaning to the life that i am leading now. I seemed to be doing things with no reason. doing things just for the sake of doing it is not me.
WEIRD, life is really complicated eh! and i really hope to find some solution to all my problems. damn!

screwed

2009-01-15T22:09:00.002+08:00

SERIOUSLY,
Why can't life be simpler? Why must it be confusing?
Why can't human nature be simpler too? Why do feelings complicate your life and affect your mood this badly? WHY?

This is my last year in cj and it's a very important year indeed. Being 19, an age of maturity, i dont feel the sense of urgency to do things or even to start planning for my future. Not that i did not give a single thought about my future, but the thought of going away from where i am now confuses me too. Happy thoughts lingers in my mind all the time, but life is not a bed of roses all the time.

For now, i go to school everyday just because i have to. I neither enjoy it nor looking forward to it. It seems as though im physically there but my heart and soul arent present. I may be seen laughing and being happy all the time. However, no one knows what is going on inside my mind. Different thoughts, getting deeper and deeper by each day, it seemed never ending.
Bus rides to and fro school are the worst. half an hour to yourself, I just kept thinking and thinking. But it seems that i do not know what im thinking about. Im just confused with how things being run nowadays. I dont even see a point to certain things sometimes, but i still do it. How stupid is that?

Im still 18 - the age where freedom and happy times are supposed to be. However, this is not my case. Like steph said, im having midlife crisis? I just kept thinking about plenty of things and getting confused over things. This is not what 18 year olds should be doing. At one hand, they should be enjoying their life and on the other hand, they should be concentrating for As. Still, have i ever done this for now? I guess not. My mind is always full of thoughts, even when im sleeping. I cant get proper sleep, my mind just keep on running wild with thoughts. WHY?

On a side note,
Weird is such a funny word that gives one a hard time thinking for a reason. Both to you and me, it seems weird now, but what happened the last time? Where has that gone to?

OMG, life sucks. never been suck-ier (if such word exists) than this before. Screwed up life.

2009-01-14T20:39:00.001+08:00

I feel like a total loser in everything.
why do life has to be that stressful?
What i really want is simple, really simple. Can it ever happen?

indonesia 08

2009-01-06T11:06:00.004+08:00

So, i went back to jakarta from 26dec-1jan. Was it a good trip? It was pretty much what i was hoping for and i enjoyed it thoroughly.

We arrived in the afternoon and my grandparents werent in as they went overseas. There was nothing much to do around the house and i got bored eventually with exploring around.
Dad said that we have 4 puppies in the house. OMG they are sooo adorable, white and fluffy. cute to the vmax! So, there i was, armed with my camera, taking pictures of this particular puppy. He's unique from the rest - he's very much fluffy and active, and i named him 'Furball' CUTEEEEEE!

After a day of doing nothing, just rotting at home, dad and mum decided to bring the family for a road trip. We went to Bandung with grandaunt and her granddaughter. The journey there was pretty smooth, no jam and stuff. However, the journey back was atrocious. We reached jakarta past midnight. So, we went around some parts of Bandung. Shopping, eating, visiting places, gahh just awesome. We visited the Strawberry Farm, but we were too late for the 'plucking' session. We just got the chance to see small strawberries -.- but their strawberry juice is good. In the evening, we went to some sort of pasarmalam where clothing is the main goods. They were cheap to vmax.

Went back to jakarta and went around the city to shop and eat, again. You see, you will never be able to be on diet if you are in indo. The food there are just too amazing to resist. Anyway, i was supposed to learn how to drive, but there wasnt much time. (I will be back end of this year and learn how to drive!) So, my cousins arrived on the 29th. They were much younger than me, but who cares? I love kids anyway. I love my 4yr old cousin - matthew. He's adorableeeee! Sooooooo, we spent our time watching movie(cheap tickets!), shopping (again), blabla. We caught Australia, which was 2hr40min long. It was a good choice of movie to watch. I wont mind paying 10bucks for it. There's plenty of history lesson in it and Nicole Kidman looked good with those pretty and elegant dresses. I swear that it's a movie that's worth 10bucks, even more than that.

Eve of new year was the bombxxxx. I got to see fireworks from the balcony of the house. awesome to the vmax please. There were plenty of fireworks that went off around the neighbourhood. If you have the money to buy fireworks, you can diy (i think!)

My extended family has a tradition of holding a party on 1stJan. Every year, it will be held in the house that im staying. So yeah, i got to see a crowd every year, without fail. Crowd meant plenty of food uh huh. My auntie always plans for a buffet with lots of great food. However, this year's was different. We had more variety, from indo to western, jap, chi food. I tried every dish, including their dessert(: just too nice. Anyway, I was thrilled to see the extended family but the long d cousin that i wished to see didnt appear ): He's apparently away in Aussie to attend a wedding. Oh! my oldest cousin owns a gym, like a proper gym. His gym is not like any other gym with benchpress machines and stuff. His is simple yet proper.

It was time that i made my trip back to spore. I was quite reluctant to come back here but i dont have a choice, there are things waiting for me to do. We arrived in terminal3, nothing much actually. And, we brought lots of goodies from indo. Mangoes is just one of them.

I enjoyed this trip more than any other indo trip. It was filled with lots of fun and i got to spend some time exploring indonesia. I hope to travel to Bali and Manado the next time i go back to indo. Also, i hope for a road trip around indonesia! cus Indonesia is a beautiful country.

end of story.

Peterpan is the new love now.
I need to complete my homework, wth!
I need to do everything right cus school is in 6 days time!

im glad,
just to know that you're always by my side.

2009, a new beginning.

2009-01-04T17:22:00.002+08:00

When the clock strikes at the stroke of midnight,
and when the numerous bang of fireworks were heard,
01.01.09 is here. The NewYear, a new beginning for some.

2008 was one rollercoaster year, with many unexpected things happened.

In the beginning of the year, just like any of my friends, i was afraid that i'll score badly for Os and not be able to go into the school that i want to. Prelim result was a disappointment and i dont really have a choice but to enter cj and i joined the canoeing team (shocking). Os result was pleasing to the eye, but i chose to stay in cj and never regretted it. As we moved on into JC life, parting was inevitable. I can never be with my close friends anymore, but who knows what's in store for me in cj. It was a surprise after all. I didnt expect myself to join the team and be close to them. I was blessed and put into such a wonderful class -t18 (:
Alright, that's the really wonderful part of JC life. On the contrary, study life is really stressful. You have to really study hard and score well. Midyear was horrible, but final was much better. Anyway, 2009 is As year and that's my final battle, i have to own it.

As we part with the close ones, we tend to reminisce about the days that we were together. We promised each other that we will have gatherings and meet-ups, but it's a difficult task. I miss my secondary school friends, classmates and all. Remembering those days when we stayed back just to play bball and those talking session at fast food restaurants. Damn, those days are amazing. Sometimes, i do really wish that time could stop then. However, back to reality. life in cj was equally fun too. New friends, new cca mates. They are just as amazing, pretty much the bunch that made my cj life so wonderful (till now).

So, the main question comes. Did i enjoy 2008?
Yeah, of course. Just like any other year, 2008 was pretty surprising for me. No doubt that this year passed very quickly, but it's just too quick, dont you think so? In a blink of an eye, zoooom, it's the beginning of 2009. ohmannnnnn and im getting older (ohshit).
alright, back to topic. Yes, i enjoyed 2008 very much. Look at how much fun i had in this year, be it with my new friends or those that i really missed. fun fun fun :D

Moving on to a new year and unlike the rest of the world, i dont really have a new year resolution. Nationals and As are the top priority. Everything else - on hold! However, i do really hope to get my hands on eos40d.

2009, here i come! :D

update on indo trip - next!

semua tentang kita

2009-01-02T23:24:00.003+08:00

Peterpan is the new love.
Semua Tentang Kita by Peterpan is awesome to the vmax :D

homework to be completed
planning for my future.
OVERSEAS for Uni! (i wish)

Life is freaking stressful with many things in mind.
18 - the life changing age and also the most stressful point of life.

open house on the 9th.
school life starts on the 12th.
nationals in 3-4 months.
Alevels in 10 months or so.
many more stuff coming up, ggtm.

update on indo trip - onhold, sigh

christmas christmas christmas!

2008-12-25T23:41:00.001+08:00

Today is the 25th dec, which is also stephchen's bday!
Celebrated it on the 23rd at the 1k mark pontoon, which was just awesome :D (im waiting for YL to send me the photos)

SOOoooo, she received $50 adidas voucher and a cake, which i baked (insert a BIG grin here) and i bet she is having a wonderful time in malacca right now. So stephiechen, HappyBirthday, once again (:

back to the topic - christmas.
nothing much actually, just like every year. small party, church, dinner, presents.
Frankly, i dont really have any mood to celebrate christmas (or even new year). I was waiting for that special gift (cus someone thought that i'll receive it as a christmas present), but it didnt appear/come at all. My hopes and dreams are vanished, like totally.
This is the end of the month of december, i shouldnt be pinning any hopes on receiving it. Im trying to give up on that thought, but the more i think about it, the more i want it. The urge is just too great that i cant barely give up. I need that someone to talk to. sigggghhhhh ):
On a happier note, i found my newfound friend (according to him, he is not considered one) this christmas! :D and im happy to receive that call from sultan :DD

Anyway, Merry Christmas to all! (i dont really like replying messages, apologies)

lonely and troubled nights.
come back quick quick quick.
there's so much i need to say and grief about.

bakebakebake!

2008-12-20T23:36:00.002+08:00

BAKING TIME :D Went to supermarket to get some stuff and off i am, spending the night in the kitchen!
Baked M&Ms cookies with a little cinnamon, a whole lot of them.

Mixed the left over batter with some peanut butter and ta-da, peanutbuttersin cookies! (peanut butter plus cinnamon).

Ingredients:
2 1/4 cups all-purpose flour
1 teaspoon baking soda
1 teaspoon salt
1 cup (2 sticks) butter, softened
3/4 cup granulated sugar
3/4 cup packed brown sugar
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
2 large eggs
2 cups M&M's

Directions:
PREHEAT oven to 375° F.

COMBINE flour, baking soda and salt in small bowl. Beat butter, granulated sugar, brown sugar and vanilla extract in large mixer bowl until creamy.
Add eggs, one at a time, beating well after each addition. Gradually beat in flour mixture. Stir in M&Ms or peanutbutter!
Drop by rounded tablespoon onto ungreased baking sheets.

BAKE for 9 to 11 minutes or until golden brown. Cool on baking sheets for 2 minutes; remove to wire racks to cool completely.

I love saturdays! i can bake and bake and bake.
christmas party tomorrow! yipeeeeeee

you'll be away ):
no more talking friend at night

friendship is one mind in many bodies.

2008-12-19T23:02:00.003+08:00

Like this flower that blossomed, our friendship blossomed as the year passed. and hopefully, it will never wither.

Meet/catching up session with some of 2e classmates.
So, everyone was late, as usual i guess. Human nature!
Well, we just kept on eating lots of food? and with the addition of laughters throughout. It was just totally wholesome, awesome to the vmax!
Reminisced bout sec2 days and how fun it would be if we were to be in the same class throughout our secondary school life. (ya, i wish that it happened)

So, we walked from one end of Orchard Rd, to another end. I love the ice cream at swensens! But, UDDERS's icecream is way much awesome! :D

meet up soon guys, you are very much missed!

for pictures, click here! register too.

I wondered, wondered for long.
but it's okay,
im looking forward to the day when you're back!

frisbee is the ultimate

2008-12-13T23:42:00.001+08:00

If you think that frisbee is only for the dogs, THINK AGAIN!
I cant wait for school to reopen. theennnnn, we can play frisbee again, as usual :D

kingkongmawas, hahahahahahaha!

63524 :D

2008-12-07T22:04:00.006+08:00

1:05! can do better! 10k standard chartered 08 today.
awesome ending, with adrenaline just kept pumping to all parts of your body, just tooo awesome to the vmax.
we will conquer half marathon next!

lunch-ed with the guys at crystal jade.
the guys are just plain funny, never fail to make me laugh.
went home to bake after that.

i was on the bus, thinking about what he said regarding canoeing.
i came up with a conclusion.
we shouldnt slack anymore, we should really work hard for nats. bring glory to cjc canoeing and i really hope that k4 will do well!

oh happy days!

2008-12-05T23:51:00.007+08:00

back from mawai camp and im glad that i went for it.
It was a memorable experience with the canoeists, group2 and t18.
eventhough it has that village-ish feeling with no electricity and limited supply of water, i still appreciate the time spent there.
The nights were cold, the sound of the nature seemed like a lullaby to some, while i was disturbed by the sound of snoring that i could barely sleep throughout the camp.
Mawai is an amazing place with the beauty of its surrounding, especially at night. I simply couldnt resist going for another firefly cruise.
The stars-filled sky at night was just beautiful and the fireflies were too pretty to resist us from saying WOW.

Mawai with its richness in history and natural glory made me adore that place to the vmax.

for pictures, click here.
register register register!

i wish to spend time with you. stay close will ya?

GOD, guide me to the right path

2008-11-30T22:17:00.004+08:00

just got back from indo today and i'll be off to mawai in less than 10hours time.

confirmation camp was great, with God by our side all the time. I love praise and worship :D
We had confession session too and i just realised that i had sinned much. Father Chong's advice was useful, but it's a different story in reality. Im confused, yet i dont want to be in such a dilemma. On a lighter note, Stefan is niceeeee :D

i dont know if im looking forward to tomorrow.
but i do know that spending time with the canoeists is what im wishing for.

if innocence could last forever

2008-11-21T15:32:00.003+08:00

a child's innocence warms my heart,
but their love made my heart filled with gratitude.

Batam OCIP was amazing.
I spent my trip with this 3 yearold kid who is damn cute. I'm somehow amazed as to how close he can get to me within that short period of time. He didnt really let anyone to carry him apart from justin, angela, arnold and myself. I love that kid ^1000000.
Anyway, this trip was an eye opener to everyone. It made us reflect on how fortunate we are. As compared to them, we are way much fortunate than them and i hope that we will not take it for granted.
Not just that, this trip has made me bond with my classmates. They are really really nice people, especially ryan. He is an amazing person who can read me like a book, and if it werent for him, this trip wouldnt be that amazing! he is indeed a nice friend :D

for pictures, click here.
you do need to register. but it wont be a waste after all. any class pictures or whatsoever will be uploaded to that webpage from now on. so yeah, register to copy pictures!

i think this would be best for us.
im trying to, but it's painful.

if i were to close my eyes ...

2008-11-16T22:12:00.000+08:00

that was how close i got to the singapore flyer. next stop is the new marina barrage! :D and it's quite fun to cycle early in the morning.

i love playing frisbee. i really want to be good at that game, and promote it to others. frisbeeeeee is the ultimate! super duper fun and tiring at the same time. the adrenaline rush made you feel damn good (:

there are lots of things going on in my mind right now. and i have no idea how things get this ugly between the both of us. at the very least, lets just stay as friends or friends of life. I remembered that we did agree on something at the very beginning - best friends. but, do you remember that?

i'll miss you, friend.
cus you are the one who lets me know that you are always there for me, no matter how sad/happy i am.

2008-11-13T22:17:00.001+08:00

i think my hamster is damn cute :D

have been cooking/baking quite alot and awesome, i love it!
but i think i should run more, cus i ran very little last/this week ):

today, k1 k2 k4. awesome stuff.
k2 and k4 timings have to IMPROVE!

training isnt something that gives you a choice. you cant choose to come or not to come. i dont get them, why cant they commit themselves? i do hope that everyone has the same goal for nats 09.

canoeists are the bomb

2008-11-07T23:03:00.001+08:00

7th nov. Gabriel's and Jolene's birthday. No celebration cus there was Alevels and stuff.
In advance, we went for Sakae buffet yesterday. paid like 16bucks for making myself ate so much and felt uncomfortable after that. Anyway, we all had FUN(: We freaking made a looooot of noise and took alooooooot of food!

Spent my weekdays in MacR. Row row row your boat ... and we did a freaking awesome CIP. Unfortunately, there was lightning, everyday? ): SO, this is what we did when there was lightning alert! Pictures and more pictures.

We got back that yellow paper today. NOT happy with my results! and we did CIP again HAHA, quite interesting eh!

so so so, i received that msg from i know who. Freaking irritated at the way he talked to me on msn. WTF, so it becomes my fault now. whatever.

on a side note,

JL, please buy a K4!

awesomeeeeee

2008-10-26T11:55:00.003+08:00

this is hot stuff :D

friday marked the end of school year, damn.
lots of happening for the time being and hopefully, i'll survive.

i want to train hard too (and study hard)
awesome, let's go.

For a moment like this.

2008-10-10T22:27:00.001+08:00

for that one special moment.
today was awesome with 18. eventhough it was only like half the class, but yah, they are the people that i enjoy being with.
the sun was freaaaaaking strong today. NEVER trust the weather forecast man. they predicted that there will be thunderstorms today. frisbee, volley, the water, the sand, lunch, window shopping, talk talk (:

they are really fun people. but if not for the sun, we would have stayed longer manzzz. GGRR
im soo sooo soooooooo tired now. and i cant wait to ROW tomorrow.

im so not used to life like this. ms tan sent us an email regarding PW. wth, damn rush ): Im gonna die. i hate using the laptop nowadays. the more i use, the more my parents have to pay for electricity. it's up by 21% ): im limiting myself to an hour or one half (max) a day. FREAK. thanks sa for the introduction of PW. it's quite a pointless subject.

somehow, life is so blank.
let's start afresh from tomorrow.
hope is all i need.

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer

2008-09-19T00:29:00.001+08:00

joseph turns 17 today :D
He was the very first guy that i avoided during the first few days of JAE as he was rather scary.
Anw, the class treated him for lunch at astons.

Frisbee was super AWESOME today (:
my group was a total awesome! we have 11 players? of which more than half of us are girls! not bad uh. so, isaac lim confiscated the frisbee yesterday, but still .... ha, we continued playing today, at the exact same place. how daring uh.

i have to say something about this classmate of mine - Angela Teo.
okay, she is damn crazy. angela + ashley = quite a disaster. They sang some chinese song today, which was -.- haha. but she's quite nice luh. and she said she loves me :D love to the power of infinity.
Great, awesome Haha. seriously, the class will be quite dead if she doesnt come to school. and it did happened for a number of times.

i kept wondering to myself of things that i shouldnt be thinking right now. the more i see him in school and during frisbee, the more i feel like talking to him.
and yes, i talked to him for the past 2 days, by chance i guess. I dont know, it just feels quite good.
To YOU: im so sorry that i hit your head with the frisbee and it caught you by suprise ):

and, Boys Likes Girls is awesome yo!

grant me this wish

2008-09-12T00:33:00.002+08:00

a year older. a brand new year ahead of me.
and i'm living the life of an eighteen year old as of this point of time.

frisbee with the canoeists and classmates for these two days were AWESOME :D
but waking up at 5.30am for two consecutive days wasnt easy at all.
anyway, got taupok (from the girls team) and smashed with cream today. and it wasnt fun running away from ryan and weijie. HEH.
many thanks to those who gave their wishes through whatever means, i really appreciate it (:
esp CANOEISTS and 1T18 (:

today was all fun.
didnt study much, and im seriously behind schedule.
i was so freaked out after hearing from weijie(the other one) that he has nearly completed his preparation for promos. ohmygosh please.
therefore, i think it's time for me to start MMAO aka mugging my ass off.

and apparently, i just saw something which made me super extra high NOW. goooosh :D yes yes, im super high now. i can see that im smiling widely :D
and yes, i cant wait for monday! monday, please comeeeeee!

whatever the outcome is, just let me have this memory of liking you.

what a day!

2008-09-10T22:35:00.002+08:00

i am praying that a kind hearted soul will return my wallet within these few days. there are really important things inside and if i dont get it back, im screwed.
please let me believe that this world is a nice place, with nice people around ):

im tired of not completing what i planned to do everyday.
that feeling just sucks.
19 days to promos, i can do it!

2008-09-09T20:45:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling lousy. the only thing that cheered me up was swimming with nic. awesome.
tomorrow will be a sucky day.
2hours of GP ):
shall end here, lots of work to complete.
GO STEPH, just 20 days to promos!

2008-09-04T00:10:00.001+08:00

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

these sentences made a great impact on me when i listened to the song titled Lucky by Jason Mraz. I was on the bus, and it was raining. I looked out of the window, looking at the water flowing down and suddenly, i realised that these lyrics are my reality. It may not be a lucky thing, but that's a fact that i cant deny.

today was not well spent at all. Supposed to go to angela's house for a swim, and study after that. But apparently, she slept in ): maybe, i should have went to school to study. staying at home to study was a rather bad choice after all. i slept for an hour before studying. and now, i cant even concentrate. what is wrong with me?

but i am glad to spend the day at home. i finally found what i want, for now. my passion for music is still there, it has not die off. my piano teacher was bad enough to have killed my passion for music, like entirely. Fortunately, i played the piano for 3 times today, 45 min each time. I swear, i have never done that since the start of the year. It made me feel really good. For every piece i played, i'm contented with how i perform, but still, i wish to do better.

25 more days.
yes, 25 more days. I have only 25 more days.
at the current rate im going, i dont know if i can make it. Physics is really killing me. The notes are damn thick, which i find it a chore. Everytime i read physics, the only thing that comes to my mind is - I want to do math, I want to do math.
This really sucks, but the temptation is just too great.
I wil conquer physics, and I WILL.

the worse thing is, im currently 'addicted' to this drama series.
the storyline is pretty alright, but what struck me is that their moral of story - FATE is something that you cant run away from.
imagine. when you were young, you met this boy who said that you are his princess and promised to protect you all his life and when he went abroad, he promised that he will come back to fulfill that promise. how sweet is that.
sadly, life can never be so good.

goodnight life.

2008-09-02T20:57:00.000+08:00

It's amazing how someone can do such a despicable act.
fcuk. i never knew that behind his jolly character was this ruthless boy.
NOW, I KNOW!
i think it's more than enough.

2008-09-01T02:12:00.000+08:00

went to angela's house for a swim and to study.
quite productive in a sense that i did physics!
promos is getting nearer and nearer, and im so dead ):

there's so much things that i want to say to you, but there isnt much chance.
i just wish that time could stop at the point of time when i first met you.
maybe, this is what they call -the sweet sweet love, the bitter sweet feeling.

and, please dont go.

2008-08-30T11:04:00.000+08:00

teachers' day celebration in school was okay.
it wasnt as exciting, interesting, meaningful, as gess's celebration.
went back to gess to see mrphua and all.
it was great to see the gess community once again.
and to see my friends again. sultan jane kede benghong sendy kannan timothy benjamin jaslyn nareyn and all.
after which, went to catch Wall-E with the canoeists. it wasnt that great, but the characters are damn cute. Very little dialogue also -.-
had lunch and went off to meet sultan and the rest at bugis.
spent the time to search for kannan's phone and wallet. his lucky day - lost wallet and phone on the same day.

on a lighter note, yesterday was a haaaaaaaapy day, very haapy day(:

29 days, 696 hours to promos.

2008-08-27T23:01:00.000+08:00

just a glimpse of you and it made my day.
the motivation just came so naturally.

33 days, 792 hours to promos.

this is getting no where.

2008-08-24T19:07:00.001+08:00

i have no life now.
training ended on friday, and i swear, Joshua is a good entertainer. Bonding and Frisbee time were the best.
there wont be anymore training from now onwards and that marks the beginning of mugging.

i hate to be staying at home all day long.
i want to run, swim, row, plaaaaaay.
and i need to lose weight. i have been eating aloooooooot this weekend. all those marks and spencer cookies are just tooo good to resist.

STUDY RUN SWIM STUDY RUN SWIM STUDY RUN SWIM!

one world, one dream part2.

2008-08-21T23:00:00.002+08:00

this week is a rather bad week.
lack of sleep is killing me in school.
i cant seem to do anything right, and my mood isnt that good either.
things are just pissing me off every single minute. projects and more projects.
decided to go for night study for the past few nights as i wont be able to concentrate at home due to olympics coverage. TEMPTATION.

I didnt watch much of the coverage but these are the few coverage and events that really inspired me.

Novak won the bronze medal match (: but still lost to Nadal.

The AMAZING USA 4x100m medley relay team. they are the BOMB!

Michael Phelps! He achieved his aim of 8 gold medals. how amazing is that.

Usain Bolt amazing run. he is just too great.

Watching the olympics really inspired me aloooooot.
it's not about how much you achieve, but it's about how much effort you put in for your race.

We, too, are running our own race.
as promos is around the corner, lets give our very best shot for this exam and do well.

BTB (back to books)

one world, one dream

2008-08-12T21:55:00.003+08:00

I have been spending my time watching most of the Olympics games. However, there is always this disappointment - NO LIVE TENNIS MATCH! ):

aarrgghhhhhhhhh!

I cant even watch my idol play his matches ):

anyway, im always rooting for NOVAK DJOKOVIC (:

Olympics has been great so far, especially the swimming events.
And and and, Taufik Hidayat suffered an early exit after losing to Malaysian's shuttler ):
that's another disappointment.

Just cant wait for 18th Aug. Let's watch Adam van Koeverden! :D
and oh, did i mention that Thomas Daley is super cute?
hahaha.

you and your magical eyes

2008-08-08T00:04:00.000+08:00

my heart just kept thumping whenever i look into your eyes,
the pair of eyes that gave me hope.
but now, im wondering to myself if im doing the right thing by holding on,
thinking that everything will go back to the very first time when we first knew each other.
that moment is probably the one and only moment when i felt what you truly meant to me.

2008-08-03T20:32:00.000+08:00

"One friend in a lifetime is much, two are many, three are hardly possible. Friendship needs a certain parallelism of life, a community of thought, a rivalry of aim." -Henry B Adams.

i am a sucky friend.
to jane and nicolette, i am very very sorry.

now, i really wish that time could stop.
what is wrong with me?

2008-07-31T22:20:00.001+08:00

finally.
after a month's break from the internet world, here i am!
internet is a temptation, seriously.

alright, there are just toooo many things that i want to say.

Canoeing Nats.
CJ did well this year!
and we had post comp dinner. lots of food and laughter.
with the seniors 'retired' to prepare for As, i kinda miss them - all of them.
their shoutings, scoldings, etc. they are a sort of motivation to me.
i miss the trainings with them around.
with pictures, less words i have to type.
Let me present to you, the bomb, the sexiest CANOEISTs 2008!

Midyear results.
Oh, cant be bothered to talk about it.
did pretty badly.

T18's very first outing.
HA, finally. T18's very first outing of the year.
went to angela's house for bbq. the guys volunteered to cook the food?
anyway, i had much much fun with the class people.
am i glad to be in T18 (:

this is the blushing boy, who is my classmate now!
he blushes sooooo easily.

2008-07-07T18:35:00.002+08:00

nationals is tomorrow.
and yes, i can feel the adrenaline rushing through my body.
it's tomorrow!

to everyone in cjcanoeing team,
row with your heart
row with all your might
row not just for yourself,
but row for CJCanoeing team and yourself and your patner(if you have one)!

all the best to everyone :D

TOUGH DAY at wimbledon

2008-06-26T18:53:00.000+08:00

it was a great match between Ana Ivanovic and Nathalie Dechy.
alas, Ana escaped being scraped off wimbledon thanks to a lucky net cord. it was really LUCKY!
i managed to watch the match for 2 sets, but it was the third that was the most exciting, i believe. they played till the 18games.
in short, Ana won 6-7, 7-6, 10-8 :D

However, luck wasnt on Novak's side.
yes, my idol lost the game to Marat Safin in straight sets ):
man, what a day in tennis.
and now, the men's semis and finals wont be that exciting anymore, unless Safin goes above 4th round!

last paper tomorrow.
and 2 weeks to nationals.
work hard, team!

THEDAY is coming.

2008-06-22T14:03:00.000+08:00

i've got the best bestfriend and friends!
that i couldnt wish for more.

it was after such a long time eversince i allow myself to confide stuff to a friend.
and i felt much much much better after that long talk.
vincent, i know that you are the best okay (HA HA!)

i thank god everyday for the gift of friends.
they (other than my family) are the greatest gift that god has given me.
and yes, these are the people that i'll not hesitate to sacrifice for.

midyears midyears.
MUG, MUGGING, LIKE SHIT.

i want to know everyone's happy pill!
cus im really gonna be so dead for the next few days, save me.
time to hit the books, bye.

2008-06-21T16:24:00.000+08:00

internet was down for a freaking 2weeks.
but i guess, it's a good thing. no more TEMPTATIONS!

LTC was great, close to awesome i guess.
it was just the first day that kinda suck, cus it was talks and talks and more talks ):
i really admire the people in my group. they were AWESOME!
the thing about them that i admire most is their determination!
way the go, group6!

womens' champ.
gosh, it was a total luck that we got into semis.
but at least, im happy with the timings.
thanks yuhua!

somehow, i felt weird during trainings.
i have no idea why, but it just feels weird.
something is seriously missing from training, but i dont know what is it.

and yes, went for saxist outing the other day.
it was at taka. went to eat at seoul garden, and hwajie was there too -.-
yes i know, all the unhealthy food.
it was fun and yes, im happy to be able to see them again (:

there are lots of things going through my mind right now.
i dont know why am i thinking so much, where i am only supposed to be thinking about midyears and nationals.
freak, i hate myself when it comes to this feeling.
i cant do things right. i feel like shit. totally.

i did put in an effort for midyears. and im still doing it right now.
so please, let me pass or do well.
i dont want to get U.
im feeling the nerve after listening to what mr hoi said that day ):

i saw things that i shouldnt see.
quite a fool to view it, and now, i know the freaking truth.
freak. since then, i cant give up that thought.
but do i have to now?
i have been telling myself to give up that damn thought, but i just couldnt.
am i doing the right thing?

2008-05-31T00:20:00.000+08:00

it's the end of may.
and the start of june = 'mugging' for midyears!

yesterday, was a crazy day!
training started at 830am and ended at 5pm or so, due to the rain.
it was an optional training after 1pm, but still, most of the j1 team went back to macritchie after lunch.
rowed k4 and it started to rain soon after.
capped.
got nagged by the canoe federation guy.
bla bla bla.
ran all the way to the bus stop. i was freezing to death on the bus ):
did i mention that I LOVE THIS WEEK? :D
rowed almost everyday, except thursday, thanks to lessons from morning till late afternoon.
how glad was i huh?

anyway, LTC on monday O:
which means, i cant go for training for a freaking 3 days straight!
im sooooo gonna miss seeing my team mates ):
im so gonna miss roooooowing!
that feeling sucks. sucks sucks sucks.
i want to row. row and row and row.
i cant wait for thursday/friday to come.
i'll rush down to macritchie.
I WANT TO ROW!

in addition, im sooooo DEAD!
i barely revise for midyears. barely touch the books.
no no no no no.
i need to get motivated, please!
time to wake up stephanie!
start start start mugging!

i miss hearing your jokes and i really want to hear it again.
i miss seeing your smiles.
im just hoping for the best, praying that you'll smile always.
i want to those memories to come back.
turn back the clock please.

the very first meant everything

2008-05-25T23:06:00.001+08:00

nevermind the previous post.

We think too small.
Like the frog at the bottom of the well.
He thinks the sky is only as big as the top of the well.
If he surfaced, he would have an entirely different view.

sometimes, i asked myself if i am doing the right thing.
if i should just be honest about it.
but still, i cant bring myself to even hint her about the disappointment.

i have been trying to force myself to forget about it for the whole day.
however, to no avail ): your image is always swimming in my mind, and it's hard to erase it just like that.
painful yet joyous at the same time. happy memories stayed on, but the painful ones just hurt the most.
im happy that we get the chance to know each other, but i think, it's time to let go.
goodbye.

i have capsized.
with the help of lifejacket, i managed to stay afloat.
and swimming away wont solve any damn problem that i have right now.

i saw chuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan! at queensway yesterday. apparently, he saw me with raymond-.-
we were looking for the canoeing jacket. the adidas jacket is looking way gooood O:
ohplease, trying to stay within budget is just sooooo difficult! D:

2008-05-20T21:51:00.003+08:00

the thought of you leaving is making me crazy.
please, dont ever leave.
please, please, just stay by my side.

CANOEISTS, looveeeeeeeeeeee :D

(edited)

saved this by chance -.-

(thanks, kelly!)
Have a blast 17th(:

2008-05-15T13:08:00.000+08:00

a happy girl for today :D
yes, very happy(:

thank god for everything that he has given me today.
the fun, laughter, happiness, and the following people -nicolette, ken, raymond, keane and adam (:

letting you fly hurts badly

2008-05-10T22:22:00.000+08:00

should i believe?
little boy(Brandon): "cece stephanie, you look like a guy from the back."
they say, children are the most innocent creature on earth.
they spoke of the truth and they never lie.
and, i believe.
shocking, but thats the truth. i should be more feminine
kids, i yearn for your innocence.

this week past pretty quickly with quite abit more of 'pissed off' than usual.
with the week past, 2 more weeks to midyears ):

trainings are getting tougher, rowed more than 10k each training.
no point rowing so much if the storkes are wrong.
how i wish jiaolian would just come down to the water and correct us when we row :O
gahh, 1 star course is rather fun (edited) there goes my weekend, no studying ):
and tomorrow is mother's day. goodgame to me.

PI's down, GPP to go.
due on monday yet we are still lying stagnant somewhere.
i want to finish it quick. no time no time :O
talking about school.
that matter hasnt come to any conclusion yet.
they returned us the shirt plus 2bucks refund each.
2bucks, like hello! so, i was rather pissed off .
hometutor found out about the matter and was willing to help us.
supposed to meet up with the teacher-in-charge sooooooon.
gahh, i want at least half price :O

There was once a court case, where two mothers, the biological and step, fought over the custody of a child. The judge asked both mothers to literally fight for the child, so both mothers took one arm of the child each and pulled, and pulled.
Soon the child started to cry, as it was hurting him. Both mothers still insisted on getting the child over to her side, however then, the biological mother started to lose her tight grip.
She loved him so much, she didn't want to hurt him, she couldn't bear to hurt him, she let go.

i am letting go,
letting go, eventhough it hurts so much.
i dont wish to let go, but i have to.
no more talking, laughters, rants, you name it.
but please ...
just tell me. please.

i dont wish for this to end here.
i want the friendship to last for a lifetime.
Here I'd admit, I'm very afraid.
Very, very afraid.

current music - Take A Bow, Rihanna

please, dont ever leave

2008-05-03T15:02:00.000+08:00

walking through the bustling city,
watching the cars go by.
everything in life just made me realize how bad of a person i am.
fish, i hate myself.

it was sports carnival yesterday.
pretty alright, but still ...
on a lighter note, t18 way the go :D
there wasnt training cause jiaolian wasnt there, ggrrrr ):

pretty tired after training today.
drained my energy last night with lots of thoughts, couldnt sleep much in the end.
but hello, i'm just 17! why do i have to think so much?
gah, i have to give up that thought. GIVE UP!

mathfa, chemtest coming up. still, i couldnt be bothered to buck up. shit.
if this continues, i'm just gonna stay stagnant.
that's a NO NO. bless me.

gw tuh orang yang paling goblok seluruh dunia.
kenapa gw musti kasih tahu bahwa gw tuh ada sedikit suka sama dia.
goblok goblok, dasar orang gila ngak punya kerjaan.
ngak tahu kenapa, gw langsung kasih tahu dia hari itu. goblok banget deh.
gimana yah, gw tuh perlu dia untuk jadi pillar gw.
untuk ngobrol, marah, etc.
tapi, rasanya ngak bisa deh. gw jadi sungkan ngobrol sama dia.
rasanya dia juga menjahuin diri dari gw.
gw sakit hati, tapi apa boleh buat?
gw musti lupakan dia. musti lupakan ):

impossible is in my dictionary

2008-05-01T13:31:00.000+08:00

there is nothing that i can do to salvage anything.
maybe it was my fault, maybe it was theirs.
but still, there is nothing that i can freaking do.
so, i can just forget about the whole thing this friday.
and i will expect 24people coming after me with a chopper each.
conclusion - I'm gonna be so deeaaaddd.

total land training today, and it was games day(:
frisbee was the ultimate power!

went for dinner with some of the canoeists after training.
gah, i love the canoeists :D
but still, i'm sorry for being emo at the end, just cant help it.

i really wish that school is all about training, not studying in a class.
i miss the paeT13. some people in my current class are giving me a hard time.
freak, please. enough of this. i want to move on with life.
i kept telling myself that 'tomorrow will be a better day', but does it even work? or am i just trying to deceive myself.
self pity doesnt work on me. i need the assurance from my class.

pissed, angry, frustrated, sad, felt betrayed, freakshit.
i am not looking forward to friday.

midyears in just 3 weeks time. ohno!

what if fate says otherwise

2008-04-27T14:27:00.000+08:00

i dreaded this feeling, the feeling of being alone in this world.
somehow or rather, i felt no presence of what they call 'friendship'.
maybe i'm wrong, i dont know. gaahhhhh!

school stuff is just pissing me off.
reality sucks, everything just sucks.
i want to live in a fantasy land.
i want to dream.

today's training was one of the best training ever, no doubt.
adam and gabriel didnt come today, and whoola! me and jolene took the darkblue tiger, just for us. it was great.
eventhough training was rather tiring, i felt extremely good.
just imagine ...

and!
saw chuaaaann at funan, but sadly, i gotta rush off for piano ):
i miss him. i miss the old days.

gosh!
i need that freaking motivation to study hard and do well.
CAs, mid years, promos ...
how can i survive?

and!
i hate it when you ignore me.
i hate it when i cant talk freely ):

That was the worst 1 minute, ever

2008-04-19T14:31:00.000+08:00

jane thinks that i abandoned my blog.
but the fact is, i'm not.
i just dont have the freaking time to blog about my everyday life, cus it is a cycle that repeats itself everyday.
school training home study bed. that's no fun, no life, super dull.
but what made my uninteresting life interesting is the people around me.
in class, i got to seat with two wonderful people who just share everything, everything duh.
during recess, some of us will go to the grandstand to talk about anything under the sun, complain about anything that you dislike, ggrr, just everything.
during training, it was the best. we rowed, trained, laughed at times, get pissed etc.
in other words, i love the team.

it would be good to stay happy always.
if things were to just get better, i hope it will be tomorrow.
i dont want to be sick and down with flu, hopefully it doesnt develop into a fever or anything.
CAs are coming up. study hard.
life is a rat race!

Hiatus?

2008-04-04T13:15:00.000+08:00

my life is like a roller coaster.
it is as crazy as it can ever be.
on hiatus, for the moment.

BESTFRIEND, the one and only.
thankyou for being there, and for everything :D

thank God for he has sent you.

HECTIC!

2008-03-24T12:31:00.000+08:00

just as what the title mentions.
i want more time to do homework ):

happy easter everyone (:

2008-03-19T12:35:00.000+08:00

if someone plays the piano with some simple chords.

homework is piling up everyday.
school ends late almost everyday.
sigh, what a life.

ryan is shy -.-, which i doubt so.

took a class photo. not a really proper one though.

1T18, downright candid!

you drew smiles for me like you've never done before.

2008-03-15T13:34:00.000+08:00

No matter what you say about life, I learn every time I bleed.

macR is 'flooded' that pub has to flush water out.
yeah, thanks to the rainy days lately.
end result = land training.

chuck aside your umbrellas!
the weather was pretty alright, at least the sun was up throughout the day.

on board 132.

kind of special i guess

holiday homework chucked aside for the past few days and today is the time to really mug.
still, look at what i've done.

the guys team went for a shave after training.
they look pretty cute i thought despite their small complains but still, isnt it good that you can feel even the slightest breeze around?
oh, they had a shave, i had my fair share too - a haircut. which was pretty decent i thought.

i'm aware of the impossibility, but i'm hoping for a miracle.

2008-03-12T15:47:00.000+08:00

Sit quietly, doing nothing, spring comes, and the grass grows by itself.

"he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
the only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
he's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
he's the time taken up, but there's never enough
and he's all that I need to fall into"
teardrops on my guitar - taylor swift

the sky darkened, storm is coming.
the weather has been rather bad lately. just dont slip and fall.

3 lights on the ceiling

1t13's gathering at charmaine's house despite the poor weather.
10 came, keane was late.
dinner - pizza that cost us nearly 80bucks!

what they call, 'quan jia fu'

ps. the photos are uploaded to photobucket. click HERE

felt the pinch of waiting for the impossible

2008-03-11T13:42:00.000+08:00

colours made the world prettier, but black and white allowed us to see the world in great details.

holidays = no income. fudgeeeeeeee.
penniless, kinda sad.
should i or should i not?

k1 way the go, i managed ohgosh.
the lanes are whooosh, undescribable.

2008-03-09T04:08:00.000+08:00

my life is blessed with the love of an angel

a week worth of break.
at least, it will be a period of time for me to have a real rest, a good sleep, mug my ass off, bla bla.

life in CJ is pretty good, though i'm still adapting to it.
and hey, new environment = new friends, i love it (: they are nice people, seriously.
and and and i love the canoeing team :D

study hard, train hard, rest well, eat well

2008-03-08T13:18:00.000+08:00

he is a portion of the loveliness, which once he made more lovely.

"if anyone says 'i love God', yet hates his brother, he is a liar. for anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen. and he has given us this command: whoever loves God must also love his brother" - 1John 4:20-21
think about it.
it strucked me and well enough, i learnt a simple lesson.

2008-02-28T13:50:00.000+08:00

it was of no wonder that we were a strong team, strive hard kudos.

dragonaboatting was interesting, eventhough it was my second time.
anyway, the class got bonded rather well. that was despite the fact that we got scolded as a class.
it's better that we were scolded as a class rather than just letting that person get all the scolding himself. class spirit it was.

somehow, i got that urged to be determined and work hard in canoeing, at least to achieve something.
it was probably due to yesterday's water training.
the passion is still burning in me, and i do hope that will keep me going on. woosh!

train hard . be determined . be strong .

2008-02-26T11:49:00.000+08:00

if i live a thousand years, i could never explain. thats how it is.

the day came.

it was time for us to part, and never be able to meet each other again.

painful, but i stopped myself from tearing.

it was heart breaking, but i will always remember the last thing you said to me.

'girl, forget me not, think of me and i'll be there'

bitter sweet.

o2 2008 was sweeeeet. IG21 was superb, awesome to the max(:
i had much fun with dosage of enthusiasm pumped in. that's how orientation should be.
im happy and indeed, IG21 was the best because we cheered for the house, despite the rest not.
we had much hyper and inhouse stories of 'gay-ness'. it was meant to be a joke luhs.
thankyou for the wonderful memories, IG21.
short and sweet -.-

1T18 it is.
i'm glad for the fact that t13 students are in the same class, but still ...
joshua and joel werent there. i missed them much and i do hope their appeal would be successful. still, i should be excited that arnold and xuanan are in the same class as me (yay, gessians ftw)

i have been sitting infront of the laptop for a freaking 3 hours straight.
had to do class some stuff, crapping with friends, watching some really hillarious videos. that's how i kill time HAHA.

a mix of emotions, but cant be helped.
i'm so gonna work hard to achieve my dream and i do hope that i have that little determination to keep myself motivated. and enjoy school life, of course.
damn, wake up for once.

2008-02-22T13:40:00.000+08:00

seeing you in smiles is everything cause nothing else matters.
kido, be happy!

embraced with sadness throughout the day, despite the fact that i was rather enthusiastic about cheering in the late morning. however, the reality remains. we are separated and i missed them terribly.
those were the times that we had fun and we laughed till there's no end. we encouraged each other, and never gave up on anyone.
these people are the ones that gave me the motivation to come to school everyday. they are the ones that made my day and cheered me up when i'm down. they too are the ones who made our teacher laughed alot, really alot.
man, how can i possibly forget them? how i can possibly leave them out of my life?
they are the ones. they are the people that made me go wild and high!

ohgod, bless them wherever they are. let them know that i miss them much.

i've never felt this much before and i know why.

p.s just for 1T13. for those who wants the orientation photos, they are uploaded to my multiply. but it's only the first 20 pictures. the rest are with tiara. for those who are lazy to save the whole lot of it, please pass me your thumbdrive (1GB please). thanks!

2008-02-19T14:39:00.000+08:00

disappointment after disappointment. broken heart, kido.

crap crap crap. i almost made the biggest mistake in my life! ok, not in my life alright.
i can barely remember that i have to submit a petition for 1T13 to stay as a class, but thankfully, i made it just in time!
and there it was. 1T13 mini class outing. we just had lunch and icecream. but we crapped, laughed, get bored alot. HAHA.
it was supposed to be fun, but when it came to decision making, i seriously dreaded it. it's mind boggling. will upload the pictures when/if i get hold of them, and when i'm not lazy/busy/tired/etc.
so, we had fun today and hopefully, we can stay as a class, really praying hard for it. im rather sentimental, i treasure the people around me.
tomorrow will be the last day that we will spend as a class, and unfortunately, there's no pe ):

just cant believe it. how big a person's ego can be.
frankly, calling yourself more intellectual than others can be deemed as a sin, but who cares, you are the one who said it, not me.
freak, how come there are sooooo many such people on earth!

2008-02-16T16:54:00.000+08:00

and again, you made me smile kido!

part of 1T13.

ROCKAFELLA was great, but it was rather monotonous due to the fact that we have too many restrictions. but overall, we were super high, totally. screamed like the whole hall is mine.

and yah, the ultimate aim on going for it is to support our one and only dearest facil - DANIEL (from the Ponies). he's great with his guitar (eventhough he claimed that he screwed his solo).

it ended rather late, but nevertheless, we still took sometime off to have dinner/supper!

and so it came again. i felt unwell this morning and thus i have to forgo my training (and plus, i had doctor's appointment). coughing pretty badly, and i needed the toilet every 15minutes or so (but thankgoodness, it was much much better in the afternoon).

and yes, please dont doubt my love of 1T13, the super TIGHT class!

2008-02-13T14:20:00.000+08:00

a broken heart that has given up

there's only one thing that i'm really hoping for now.
it's for 1T13 to stay as a class after 2nd intake.

no matter how hard it takes for us to stay as a class, we will do it as a class and we will remain as one.
for those who cant meet the cutoff point, please please, APPEAL.
remember, god will only help those who will help themselves.
appeal and pray hard.
and always stay optimistic.
it's not a normative statement though.

lord, please answer my prayer.

2008-02-11T07:36:00.000+08:00

you're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
you are the everything, kido

just reached home from the airport ):
YAY! chinese new year with mum's family was awesome. everything was so undescriable.
and the food there was the BOMBx100! and the plus point is that, the seafood there is relatively cheap as compared to spore's.
shopped for comics and did part of my homework there.
we(my cousins and i) would stay up till 3am to play cards and we had a stayover at another cousin's house. HAHA, exciting eh?
afterall, i want to go back there again ! and oh, my cousin's puppy is just soooo adorable.

as for now, i am so dead.
homework not completed, lots of them by the way.
and NINTENDO DS is freaking addictive!

2008-02-05T13:41:00.000+08:00

you pulled every string in my heart to make it sing, kido!

seeing is believing, that's right.
feel it, and feel it right.
eversince then, i've never felt like this before. felt like how i once used to feel.
something inside keeps urging me to be a lively and happy kid again, to feel the love of the people that surrounds me. and HEY! i love that feeling (:
and hohoho, you made my day just by letting me to have a glance of your kiddy face.
hey kido, thanks and i love your face (:

2008-01-26T16:25:00.000+08:00

i have learned the only truth that i need to know.

it seemed so hard to part, but that's part and parcel of life.
i still cant come to terms with it. i simply just cant.
eventhough it is just a few weeks for friendship, i do treasure it from the bottom of my heart.
you guys are the ones who made my stay worthwhile. and i wish ...
it's ironic isnt it. i thought i couldnt get along with you guys, but look at what happened.

people change, everyone change.
changes are inevitable, but i loathe them ):
sometimes in life, things wont go according to your way and you just have to accept it the way they are. however, if i have the power to change, i will.

2008-01-26T04:04:00.000+08:00

i am your imaginary friend. i am the whisper in the wind.

off from school, for today, YAY!
1T13, please stay as a class. pretty please.
i dont seem to have a life now. i want training.

2008-01-22T09:04:00.000+08:00

be sad no more, because tomorrow will be a better day.

for those who are feeling down due to some problems, dont fret! cus there is a solution to every problem.
for those who are feeling lost, dont be afraid! cus there is a light which will shine the path to freedom.
for those who are feeling rather or very sad, dont cry! cus there is a pair of listening ear who will willingly listen to your woes.

in destiny, you're the chosen one
because of you, i'm glad that everything's over
there's a time when we sat on the field,
waiting for the sky to turn dark
and oh, there's hope for everything!
you said.

2008-01-14T02:20:00.000+08:00

orientation in cjc was an utter fall in love kind of thing.
we had 6days of enjoyment and now, it's all back to lectures and tutorials.
first 3days was spent with IG8 mates and the next was spent with 1T13 mates.
i have met numerous awesome people who can do all sorts of stuff HAHA.
whatever it is, i had lots of fun.
and what's more, i love my class people too.
eventhough the guys dominated the class (science class, thats why). lectures started on thursday and what can i say? ohhhh, i love math lectures (:

1T13 (:

2008-01-05T17:11:00.000+08:00

i am living a lifeless life for the weekend nights.
the urge of going out with friends is always there, but it seems that i am too lazy to get out of the house.
i want to do something fun and unusual.
something that defies gravity.
something that will make me happy again.
unfortunately, it is impossible ):

i want to learn how to SCUBADIVE!

IG 08!
with much loves :D

on a slight note, i dont wish to come online.
it's unexciting, tedious and a waste of money (electricity bills)
adieu internet world.

2008-01-03T12:18:00.000+08:00

IG 08! (:
loved :D

2007-12-31T19:07:00.000+08:00

and yet again, i came back to jakarta today.
the journey was pretty good with quite a number of turbulance here and there.
despite the many challenges during the journey, the landing was excellent.
the best plane landing so far. so smooth yet so light (you get what i mean?)
and the good thing was that i was able to rush out to buy some comics before we headed home (i went to 2 bookstores just to get them) (:

ohohoh, my cousins (from dad's side) are in jakarta. they are way younger than me but kids being kids are just too adorable. i didnt see them till dinner which was at some chinese restaurant. despite the unappetizing dinner, the atmosphere of the whole restaurant was simply great. tonight being the eve of a new year, they had a little countdown at the restaurant with balloons, sing-alongs, dancing, blahblah. kids were rushing to get their share of balloons while my cousins brought home 6 balloons :D

eventhough jakarta is a metropolitan city, but the fact that the country's well being is not really well taken care of by the government exists (to a certain extent). but what happened at 11.45pm (jakarta's time) changed my mindset. the government actually has put together a countdown party with 10000 fireworks worth 30mintues, which includes partying till the wee hours. it was held at MONAS and thus my dad said that it was done by the government LOL. and two million people actually turned up. we could hear the popping noises made by the fireworks from my house as we stayed in the vacinity. we could see some of the works but still we couldnt see the main attraction. and thus we turned to the teevee (that's why tv was invented, for the convenience). the fireworks was great and the songs were great, esp by ungu (or something like that). and ohh, i love peterpan(:

2007 has just ended in a poof of a blow but whatever has happened throughout the year is something that would be difficult to be forgotten.
from not liking certain people to going through the painful and agonizing times during Os and to the joy of being able to graduate. these are not just memories but they are memories that can only happen once in a life time.

since it is the new year, i should make my new year's resolutions.
1. to be closer to GOD (going to church even more often).
that's by not skipping sunday classses and stuff. and it is the strength that God has given me through out the hard times which enables me to surpass them. without it, i may just have given up ):

2. to be a better person (this is definitely)
i have been rather bad this year. so, please. made me strong to overcome any unhappiness and make me a person with a good heart.

that's all, i just couldnt remember all (:

it's a long post, i know.
will blog bout the trip when i have the time.

2007-12-28T05:54:00.000+08:00

TOUCHED down in jakarta.

i'll be on another plane tomorrow ):

five more days to 2008.

didnt do anything much here and thus life is pretty boring. as compared to singapore, i have the luxury of having maids to serve and meet our daily neccesities and cars to travel. yet, the disappointment of not having my cousins around is killing me. they will only arrive on the 29th, while i'll be going to meet my the other cousins tomorrow at surabaya.

first day isnt that bad as we arrived rather early, having the afternoon to go for some shopping.

uncle fixed the internet connection at night and it can only be used at certain places around the house, thus online-ing is only during the day ): eventhough it is a broadband connection, it is rather slow, way slower than singapore's connection (can't be helped lurhs).

the food here woots! way great. i had AnW yesterday (the root beer float is their speciality), but it is rather expensive ):

ok, hope something good happens later(:

2007-12-26T07:05:00.000+08:00

today is christmas (:
tomorrow is the day i'll be on that aeroplane ):
seven more days to 2008.

Merry Christmas to all! (:
may the spirit of Christmas brings you peace,
while the gladness of Christmas gives you hope,
and the warmth of Christmas grants you love.

i have only one wish for this christmas.
.for everyone (every single soul, whether they are at the northpole, africa, blabla) in this world to have a merry and joyful christmas{:
santa, please grant my wish.

[edit]
i saw jaslyn's post regarding santa coming to singapore.
okay, it is a fact that singapore has millions of tall HDBs and we have no chimneys.
but it doesnt matter. Santa could make use of water pipes, or whatever pipes to pass his presents to us. HAHA. of course, provided that his wrapping papers are waterproof!
aiyah, why does it matter so much!
Santa can have his presents delivered to Singapore Post and they can mail it to us (with a fee lurhs).
then, he doesnt have to overwork his reindeers and he doesnt have to travel that much.
public transport is rather convenient and efficient here!

on a slight note, i have uploaded 'Alvin and the Chipmunks soundtrack
[2007]'.
it's the full version.
download it at my multiply
(but you gotta be a member) and it's FREE(:

2007-12-23T15:14:00.000+08:00

three more days to christmas.
ten more days to new year.
four more days to be out of the country.

i thought of starting afresh (what a thought lahhh). therefore, a new year equals to a new blog. it's lame, but who cares :D

[edit]

it was on the news yesterday (21dec.)
road accident, involving 2buses and a car at the junction near cresentgirls and redhill mrt (whatever the place is). i was at the scene (nearby). to be exact, i was on this double decker bus and the bus just wouldnt move, cause another bus (which was involved in the accident) was blocking 7/8 of the road. it took the bus driver 10-15 minutes to make his way out ):

look at how bad it is. fortunately, no life was taken, i think so.
it was so close, really close.