what if fate says otherwise

i dreaded this feeling, the feeling of being alone in this world.
somehow or rather, i felt no presence of what they call 'friendship'.
maybe i'm wrong, i dont know. gaahhhhh!

school stuff is just pissing me off.
reality sucks, everything just sucks.
i want to live in a fantasy land.
i want to dream.

today's training was one of the best training ever, no doubt.
adam and gabriel didnt come today, and whoola! me and jolene took the darkblue tiger, just for us. it was great.
eventhough training was rather tiring, i felt extremely good.
just imagine ...

and!
saw chuaaaann at funan, but sadly, i gotta rush off for piano ):
i miss him. i miss the old days.

gosh!
i need that freaking motivation to study hard and do well.
CAs, mid years, promos ...
how can i survive?

and!
i hate it when you ignore me.
i hate it when i cant talk freely ):