please, dont ever leave

walking through the bustling city,
watching the cars go by.
everything in life just made me realize how bad of a person i am.
fish, i hate myself.

it was sports carnival yesterday.
pretty alright, but still ...
on a lighter note, t18 way the go :D
there wasnt training cause jiaolian wasnt there, ggrrrr ):

pretty tired after training today.
drained my energy last night with lots of thoughts, couldnt sleep much in the end.
but hello, i'm just 17! why do i have to think so much?
gah, i have to give up that thought. GIVE UP!

mathfa, chemtest coming up. still, i couldnt be bothered to buck up. shit.
if this continues, i'm just gonna stay stagnant.
that's a NO NO. bless me.

gw tuh orang yang paling goblok seluruh dunia.
kenapa gw musti kasih tahu bahwa gw tuh ada sedikit suka sama dia.
goblok goblok, dasar orang gila ngak punya kerjaan.
ngak tahu kenapa, gw langsung kasih tahu dia hari itu. goblok banget deh.
gimana yah, gw tuh perlu dia untuk jadi pillar gw.
untuk ngobrol, marah, etc.
tapi, rasanya ngak bisa deh. gw jadi sungkan ngobrol sama dia.
rasanya dia juga menjahuin diri dari gw.
gw sakit hati, tapi apa boleh buat?
gw musti lupakan dia. musti lupakan ):