letting you fly hurts badly

should i believe?
little boy(Brandon): "cece stephanie, you look like a guy from the back."
they say, children are the most innocent creature on earth.
they spoke of the truth and they never lie.
and, i believe.
shocking, but thats the truth. i should be more feminine
kids, i yearn for your innocence.

this week past pretty quickly with quite abit more of 'pissed off' than usual.
with the week past, 2 more weeks to midyears ):

trainings are getting tougher, rowed more than 10k each training.
no point rowing so much if the storkes are wrong.
how i wish jiaolian would just come down to the water and correct us when we row :O
gahh, 1 star course is rather fun (edited) there goes my weekend, no studying ):
and tomorrow is mother's day. goodgame to me.

PI's down, GPP to go.
due on monday yet we are still lying stagnant somewhere.
i want to finish it quick. no time no time :O
talking about school.
that matter hasnt come to any conclusion yet.
they returned us the shirt plus 2bucks refund each.
2bucks, like hello! so, i was rather pissed off .
hometutor found out about the matter and was willing to help us.
supposed to meet up with the teacher-in-charge sooooooon.
gahh, i want at least half price :O


There was once a court case, where two mothers, the biological and step, fought over the custody of a child. The judge asked both mothers to literally fight for the child, so both mothers took one arm of the child each and pulled, and pulled.
Soon the child started to cry, as it was hurting him. Both mothers still insisted on getting the child over to her side, however then, the biological mother started to lose her tight grip.
She loved him so much, she didn't want to hurt him, she couldn't bear to hurt him, she let go.

i am letting go,
letting go, eventhough it hurts so much.
i dont wish to let go, but i have to.
no more talking, laughters, rants, you name it.
but please ...
just tell me. please.

i dont wish for this to end here.
i want the friendship to last for a lifetime.
Here I'd admit, I'm very afraid.
Very, very afraid.

current music - Take A Bow, Rihanna