Aussie open 2009!

it's the Aussie open once again! (im rather late for this, but heck)

anyway, this year is a special year for the aussie open. many interesting matches and massive disappointment for some players.

Murray and Djokovic are out of the race ): my super massive heartbreaker. Nevermind about that, but the underdogs are really awesome.



Simon is really good ya know. His big serve is awesome. and and, he is currently playing against Nadal in the last quaterfinal. Nadal took the 1st set and the 2nd set is exciting! (im VERY excited over this match! go watch!)

On the female side, it was just as exciting! :D

The Aussie favourite, Dokic, is out of the race. She fought a good match against Safina.

And and, my favs, Ana Ivanovic and Jelena Jonkovic are out ): damn, it's really bad ya know. HEARTBROKEN ):




Look at her freaking muscles, HUGE!

this is all the time i have for now.tata.
more update soon?

life is so mundane nowadays.
nothing seems to be going to the right direction.
everything seems so wrong, just so wrong.

what's life for me ahead? i never know.
but i do hope that there is some excitement for now.

i dont wish to be emo or unhappy about life, but i seriously think that there is little meaning to the life that i am leading now. I seemed to be doing things with no reason. doing things just for the sake of doing it is not me.
WEIRD, life is really complicated eh! and i really hope to find some solution to all my problems. damn!

screwed

SERIOUSLY,
Why can't life be simpler? Why must it be confusing?
Why can't human nature be simpler too? Why do feelings complicate your life and affect your mood this badly? WHY?

This is my last year in cj and it's a very important year indeed. Being 19, an age of maturity, i dont feel the sense of urgency to do things or even to start planning for my future. Not that i did not give a single thought about my future, but the thought of going away from where i am now confuses me too. Happy thoughts lingers in my mind all the time, but life is not a bed of roses all the time.

For now, i go to school everyday just because i have to. I neither enjoy it nor looking forward to it. It seems as though im physically there but my heart and soul arent present. I may be seen laughing and being happy all the time. However, no one knows what is going on inside my mind. Different thoughts, getting deeper and deeper by each day, it seemed never ending.
Bus rides to and fro school are the worst. half an hour to yourself, I just kept thinking and thinking. But it seems that i do not know what im thinking about. Im just confused with how things being run nowadays. I dont even see a point to certain things sometimes, but i still do it. How stupid is that?

Im still 18 - the age where freedom and happy times are supposed to be. However, this is not my case. Like steph said, im having midlife crisis? I just kept thinking about plenty of things and getting confused over things. This is not what 18 year olds should be doing. At one hand, they should be enjoying their life and on the other hand, they should be concentrating for As. Still, have i ever done this for now? I guess not. My mind is always full of thoughts, even when im sleeping. I cant get proper sleep, my mind just keep on running wild with thoughts. WHY?

On a side note,
Weird is such a funny word that gives one a hard time thinking for a reason. Both to you and me, it seems weird now, but what happened the last time? Where has that gone to?


OMG, life sucks. never been suck-ier (if such word exists) than this before. Screwed up life.

I feel like a total loser in everything.
why do life has to be that stressful?
What i really want is simple, really simple. Can it ever happen?

indonesia 08

So, i went back to jakarta from 26dec-1jan. Was it a good trip? It was pretty much what i was hoping for and i enjoyed it thoroughly.

We arrived in the afternoon and my grandparents werent in as they went overseas. There was nothing much to do around the house and i got bored eventually with exploring around.
Dad said that we have 4 puppies in the house. OMG they are sooo adorable, white and fluffy. cute to the vmax! So, there i was, armed with my camera, taking pictures of this particular puppy. He's unique from the rest - he's very much fluffy and active, and i named him 'Furball' CUTEEEEEE!



After a day of doing nothing, just rotting at home, dad and mum decided to bring the family for a road trip. We went to Bandung with grandaunt and her granddaughter. The journey there was pretty smooth, no jam and stuff. However, the journey back was atrocious. We reached jakarta past midnight. So, we went around some parts of Bandung. Shopping, eating, visiting places, gahh just awesome. We visited the Strawberry Farm, but we were too late for the 'plucking' session. We just got the chance to see small strawberries -.- but their strawberry juice is good. In the evening, we went to some sort of pasarmalam where clothing is the main goods. They were cheap to vmax.





Went back to jakarta and went around the city to shop and eat, again. You see, you will never be able to be on diet if you are in indo. The food there are just too amazing to resist. Anyway, i was supposed to learn how to drive, but there wasnt much time. (I will be back end of this year and learn how to drive!) So, my cousins arrived on the 29th. They were much younger than me, but who cares? I love kids anyway. I love my 4yr old cousin - matthew. He's adorableeeee! Sooooooo, we spent our time watching movie(cheap tickets!), shopping (again), blabla. We caught Australia, which was 2hr40min long. It was a good choice of movie to watch. I wont mind paying 10bucks for it. There's plenty of history lesson in it and Nicole Kidman looked good with those pretty and elegant dresses. I swear that it's a movie that's worth 10bucks, even more than that.



Eve of new year was the bombxxxx. I got to see fireworks from the balcony of the house. awesome to the vmax please. There were plenty of fireworks that went off around the neighbourhood. If you have the money to buy fireworks, you can diy (i think!)



My extended family has a tradition of holding a party on 1stJan. Every year, it will be held in the house that im staying. So yeah, i got to see a crowd every year, without fail. Crowd meant plenty of food uh huh. My auntie always plans for a buffet with lots of great food. However, this year's was different. We had more variety, from indo to western, jap, chi food. I tried every dish, including their dessert(: just too nice. Anyway, I was thrilled to see the extended family but the long d cousin that i wished to see didnt appear ): He's apparently away in Aussie to attend a wedding. Oh! my oldest cousin owns a gym, like a proper gym. His gym is not like any other gym with benchpress machines and stuff. His is simple yet proper.

It was time that i made my trip back to spore. I was quite reluctant to come back here but i dont have a choice, there are things waiting for me to do. We arrived in terminal3, nothing much actually. And, we brought lots of goodies from indo. Mangoes is just one of them.

I enjoyed this trip more than any other indo trip. It was filled with lots of fun and i got to spend some time exploring indonesia. I hope to travel to Bali and Manado the next time i go back to indo. Also, i hope for a road trip around indonesia! cus Indonesia is a beautiful country.

end of story.

Peterpan is the new love now.
I need to complete my homework, wth!
I need to do everything right cus school is in 6 days time!


im glad,
just to know that you're always by my side.

2009, a new beginning.

When the clock strikes at the stroke of midnight,
and when the numerous bang of fireworks were heard,
01.01.09 is here. The NewYear, a new beginning for some.

2008 was one rollercoaster year, with many unexpected things happened.

In the beginning of the year, just like any of my friends, i was afraid that i'll score badly for Os and not be able to go into the school that i want to. Prelim result was a disappointment and i dont really have a choice but to enter cj and i joined the canoeing team (shocking). Os result was pleasing to the eye, but i chose to stay in cj and never regretted it. As we moved on into JC life, parting was inevitable. I can never be with my close friends anymore, but who knows what's in store for me in cj. It was a surprise after all. I didnt expect myself to join the team and be close to them. I was blessed and put into such a wonderful class -t18 (:
Alright, that's the really wonderful part of JC life. On the contrary, study life is really stressful. You have to really study hard and score well. Midyear was horrible, but final was much better. Anyway, 2009 is As year and that's my final battle, i have to own it.

As we part with the close ones, we tend to reminisce about the days that we were together. We promised each other that we will have gatherings and meet-ups, but it's a difficult task. I miss my secondary school friends, classmates and all. Remembering those days when we stayed back just to play bball and those talking session at fast food restaurants. Damn, those days are amazing. Sometimes, i do really wish that time could stop then. However, back to reality. life in cj was equally fun too. New friends, new cca mates. They are just as amazing, pretty much the bunch that made my cj life so wonderful (till now).

So, the main question comes. Did i enjoy 2008?
Yeah, of course. Just like any other year, 2008 was pretty surprising for me. No doubt that this year passed very quickly, but it's just too quick, dont you think so? In a blink of an eye, zoooom, it's the beginning of 2009. ohmannnnnn and im getting older (ohshit).
alright, back to topic. Yes, i enjoyed 2008 very much. Look at how much fun i had in this year, be it with my new friends or those that i really missed. fun fun fun :D

Moving on to a new year and unlike the rest of the world, i dont really have a new year resolution. Nationals and As are the top priority. Everything else - on hold! However, i do really hope to get my hands on eos40d.

2009, here i come! :D


update on indo trip - next!

semua tentang kita

Peterpan is the new love.
Semua Tentang Kita by Peterpan is awesome to the vmax :D

homework to be completed
planning for my future.
OVERSEAS for Uni! (i wish)

Life is freaking stressful with many things in mind.
18 - the life changing age and also the most stressful point of life.

open house on the 9th.
school life starts on the 12th.
nationals in 3-4 months.
Alevels in 10 months or so.
many more stuff coming up, ggtm.

update on indo trip - onhold, sigh