what if fate says otherwise

i dreaded this feeling, the feeling of being alone in this world.
somehow or rather, i felt no presence of what they call 'friendship'.
maybe i'm wrong, i dont know. gaahhhhh!

school stuff is just pissing me off.
reality sucks, everything just sucks.
i want to live in a fantasy land.
i want to dream.

today's training was one of the best training ever, no doubt.
adam and gabriel didnt come today, and whoola! me and jolene took the darkblue tiger, just for us. it was great.
eventhough training was rather tiring, i felt extremely good.
just imagine ...

and!
saw chuaaaann at funan, but sadly, i gotta rush off for piano ):
i miss him. i miss the old days.

gosh!
i need that freaking motivation to study hard and do well.
CAs, mid years, promos ...
how can i survive?

and!
i hate it when you ignore me.
i hate it when i cant talk freely ):

That was the worst 1 minute, ever

jane thinks that i abandoned my blog.
but the fact is, i'm not.
i just dont have the freaking time to blog about my everyday life, cus it is a cycle that repeats itself everyday.
school training home study bed. that's no fun, no life, super dull.
but what made my uninteresting life interesting is the people around me.
in class, i got to seat with two wonderful people who just share everything, everything duh.
during recess, some of us will go to the grandstand to talk about anything under the sun, complain about anything that you dislike, ggrr, just everything.
during training, it was the best. we rowed, trained, laughed at times, get pissed etc.
in other words, i love the team.


it would be good to stay happy always.
if things were to just get better, i hope it will be tomorrow.
i dont want to be sick and down with flu, hopefully it doesnt develop into a fever or anything.
CAs are coming up. study hard.
life is a rat race!

Hiatus?

my life is like a roller coaster.
it is as crazy as it can ever be.
on hiatus, for the moment.

BESTFRIEND, the one and only.
thankyou for being there, and for everything :D

thank God for he has sent you.